Day 1 - Confirmation

I am extremely exhausted at this point. I did not sleep at all last night. All I could do was cry every time I looked over at my precious boy sleeping in his little white metal crib. He is so oblivious to everything. A CT scan is scheduled for sometime in the a.m.

At 9:45 a.m., they come and get us and wheel us over to CT. He was so cute, sitting in his little crib while we ventured down the halls, holding on to the crib railing. We get to CT, and wait. And wait. And wait. The anesthesiologist was busy with other patients. Great timing. You think they would schedule accordingly. We finally got our turn at 12:00 p.m. or so. Myself and Gilmer went in and watched as the anesthesiologist put him to sleep. We then went out and waited. (It seems like all you do is WAIT. Whether it is waiting for doctors to come, waiting for results, waiting for tests....) About 5 minutes later, the radiologist comes out a little worried and asks one of the most off the wall questions. "Was he born with one kidney or two?" Myself and Gilmer look at each other, very confused and worried. It took us a second or two but we manage to reply with a slight studder... "two?" You would think? Right? I mean isn't that what we are all supposed to have? So, that freaked us out, and again, my stomach just tightens up. (You think the ultrasound tech from the ER would have noticed and we would have been informed.) He goes and gets another tech and I can hear him telling him that he cannot see the second kidney. That tech is in there for all but 2 minutes. I peeked in the window of the control room, and he ran another scan, and there they were - both kidneys. He then zooms in on the left and sure enough, there it is - a large solid white "blob". I knew it was there because of what the ultrasound showed, but I was really hoping that the ultrasound tech was wrong. Another little while, and he is done. The anesthesiologist carried him out and layed him in his crib. We were then taken to recovery so he could wake up. We were in recovery for about 1 hour, and we were back up to our room at about 1:30 p.m.

The Oncologist showed up a while later. I slammed this poor lady with 5.5 million questions. She explained the CT results and told us pretty much what we all expected: Isaac has a 7.5 x 6.3 cm solid mass located on his left kidney. We are not sure what type of tumor it is, and will not find out until they go in to remove his kidney. We will have to wait for the surgeon to decide when this surgery will take place.

We moved to the 3rd floor - Oncology - room 333.

Now that I sit here and think about it, Isaac had a few symptoms that I had chalked up to possible teething - fever, and decreased appetite. He started rejecting Mommy's homemade food, which was unlike him.