Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Fear
The fear is overpowering, it is overwhelming. The not knowing of what the future will bring. I think of Isaac every moment of every second, it's like an obsession. You can't help but feel that you have to give him all of your time and attention, all the cuddles and snuggles that he can stand, because one day, my ultimate fear is that this horrible beast will come back - with a vengeance - and snatch my beautiful child from me. Every fever, every cough, every sneeze is going to be agonizing, wondering if something is there. The CT scans, the wait and see. It seems like all we do is wait. What are we waiting for? Isaac has gone through more than many of us will in a lifetime. NO child should have to endure the pain, the horrible treatments, the ...... CANCER. I pray, that one day there is a cure. Maybe not tomorrow, or next year, but someday. Someday - soon.
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I just want to give you a great big hug. Love you Brandi!
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ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you and your family. As a cancer survivor myself I fully understand the fear you are feeling. All survivors and their families have to live with not knowing what tomorrow may bring. Your little man is strong and with a Mommy like you it will all work out. Sending lots of love and positive energy your way!
Hi,
ReplyDeleteI just read your blog about your little guy. You have been through so much in the last few weeks. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I hope you get the answers you need soon!
I don't know you, but I'm here to support you and offer my prayers. I have an 8mo old too and I can't imagine. You're in my thoughts.
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